This year in review + things I am thankful for

Today I am Thankful for God......
Today I am Thankful to be saved......
Today I am Thankful that He heals......
Today I am Thankful for His  Blessings......
Today I am Thankful that things are as well as they are......
Today I am Thankful for Family......
Today I am Thankful for Dathan and Tanner......
Today I am Thankful for Friends.......

                                                                                  

My "Thankful" list could go on and on. This year has been a strange year in many ways, there are many things that I did not blog about this year that I could have. We have had some extremely happy times this year, and we have had some extremely sad times this year, I have experienced some deep hurts also. This year has felt like I experienced a "second death" of a loved one. I still haven't figured out why things happened as they did. It's so hard to look at someone going on with life and being treated like the world owes them something, yet when you try to get something done that you feel is only fair you just don't matter anymore, your requests go unanswered and ignored....yes I have lost all confidence in the court system. We the victim will always be the victim, period. On the flipside of this whole thing, God has got me. He has given me strength that has been amazing. Today I am Thankful for strength......

I haven't Blogged about this. Almost a year ago Dathan and I became the Pastor's at the "Glorybarn" (Well he is the Pastor, I am just his faithful sidekick) a year ago we said no way we can't be the Pastor, we are not capable or qualified. I've referred to the saying many times this year..."God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called" We've know right from the beginning that we were in the perfect will of God. Has anyone ever told you how happy you are when you are in God's will? No I didn't say it makes it easy, I said you are happy. Today I am Thankful to be in God's will.

Dathan. The one God gave me in my deepest hurt. I have felt for him so many times this year, he has had to deal with so much stuff through all of this, yet he has went through it with his head held high and supported me. Before you marry a widow or widower you might want to speak with him first, :-)) I seriously think he is one of the best guys on the earth, it was only in my dreams that I dreamed that someone could step in and treat us so good, but he does. He loves Tanner unconditionally, it's not put on, it is genuine. Tanner's feelings are mutual. Today I am Thankful for Dathan.

Tanner. The most amazing little boy ever. Having a child with Down Syndrome is one of the biggest blessing's that God has given me, he is perfect. I look back on the day they were born, the hurt and anger I felt over realizing that he could have DS was overwhelming, then when I received the official diagnosis I felt like I had been wronged by God at the time, was I forever more wrong. I was grieving the loss of his twin dying, then a diagnosis like that you grieve for the child you had planned for.

To my dearest son Tanner

"I Planned"

I planned on having twins "I did"

I planned on having a perfect child "I did"

I planned on having a beautiful child "I did"

I planned on him being humorous "he is" (he is a comedian)

I planned on him loving the Lord "he does"

I planned on him walking "he does"

I planned on him talking "he does"

I planned on him singing "he does"

I planned on him going to school "he does"

I planned on him reading "he does"

I planned on him writing "he does"

I planned on being proud of him "I am" "I couldn't be prouder to be him mom"

I didn't plan on his identical twin dying "he did"

I didn't plan on him having Down Syndrome "he does"

I didn't know how wonderful life would be with a Down Syndrome Child "I do now"

                                                                                                                             Love, Mom

                                                  



     





     Today I am Thankful that I feel Thankful, what if I never returned to just say thanks?

Remember to thank God for something, whether it be big or small, He deserves a "Thank You"! 

Have a Blessed Thanksgiving!!

"Tis the Season"

I'm not going to lie, I love snow. I am like a kid when the forecast predicts it!  We had our first snow of the season last week, we only got 2-3 inches but it was still pretty. Tanner and I decided to drag out the Christmas decorations today, (yes I know we haven't even had Thanksgiving yet) he was more interested in wrapping gifts which we do not have yet, I seriously haven't bought one gift,  I seriously do not want to think about it either! When it comes to figuring out what to get for people,  I could be a real Mr. Scrooge and not do Christmas at all. Speaking of Mr. Scrooge, that is one of my favorite Christmas plays, I cry almost everytime they sing "God made me special" hope to see it at Branson this year.

In Pursuit of God

For several months now I have had a great desire to draw closer to God. I want to go to a higher level in my Christian experience. I have been in pursuit of a deeper walk with him and lately I have felt him beckoning me to draw nigh unto him almost every waking moment. I have been digging into the Word of God and trying to really study. The Lord is opening up scriptures to me and blessing me through His word. I desire to be a prayer warrior with the gifts of the spirit working through me. I want to be used of God, I want my life to bring Him glory. I want to make sure that my treasure is not in worldly things, Luke 12:34 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. (KJV) I want to love Him, know Him, obey Him, follow Him, be sensitive to His voice, and be faithful to Him. I have fell so much more in love with Christ in my pursuit of Him. Matthew 5:6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled. (KJV) If we pursue God, he will fill us....that's a promise to us!

Just Pics!

My little minion!

Our "deer" friends hanging out in our front yard. One of the reasons I love living in the country!

Tanner enjoying his friends that came to visit!